Its Not A Problem

I'm over Andre, and i can finaly get my mind clear. I would like to start back at the ways things where, but i know thats not going to happen. I just have to make the best of it, or atleast try to...

Break My Heart Why Don't You!

...okay, so the whole Jason thing dissapeared on Monday when i went out woth this guy, Andre. Iv'e known him longer than i have known Jason, so there was more of a click between us.
Any ways, Andre and i went out for two days, and i enjoyed them, but yestureday when we went for a walk, he turned to me and said "You know we have to break up". I said nothing, just trying to pretend he didn't say that. But he continued "I just don't want to be in a relationship right now" and then he left after giving me the worst, most sad hug i've ever gotten.
The thing is, he left me without any reason as to why he didn't want to be with me, he just left me hanging on that last thought, which really upsets me!
Look, im not mad at him, but im mad at the fact that he lead me on like that, or so it seem like a lead on.
I was thinking about this earlier today and i started to write, poeticly for some strange reason.

~I gave you my heart
and you broke it in two.
You left me there
without a word.
And now i don't know what to do.
My emotions are torn,
my mind is not at ease,
and you think you can dump me whenever you please!?
I let you in my arms
with trust and care,
but now that your gone
i am filled with disspare.
I don't miss you,
and thats just fine,
but even though you broke my heart,
its your loss,
not mine!~
(Original by yours truly)

I Have a Chance @ Romance

Okay... i was walking to the library and spoted Jason standing in the middle of the court yard. I rush to him before he can walk away, but i was being really akward with him.
But to my success, i was able to ask him out on a date next week! im really nervououse, i don't want to make myself look too desperate or even look like an idiot. I just have to stay away from any AKWARD PAUSES. God forbid that happens.
Wish me luck! ^_0

My Crush is Crushing Me

...I met a guy a few days ago, and yes he is also gay, he's so cute, and funny, and can put a smile on my face. His name is Jason, and I really like him, but i don't think he has any iterest in me. Whats there not to like about me. Not to sound conceded, but im nice, im chaming-ish, im funny at times, and im not that bad looking, am i?
IDK what to do, i want him to notice me, but when im around him, i cant even think of anything to say, let alone cary on a conversation without an AKWARD PAUSE. It would just be easier if we where alone, you know, just to talk so i can get a word out in edgwise, but sadly hes always around a girl names Rebecka. im not jelous or anything, its just that they are really great friends and inseperable, which makes it really hrad to talk to him.
Ill just try to make due with what i can, and hope for the best. OPTIMISM

Emergancy!!!

Today, i had the biggest icecream craving in the world. And i wanted a spesific flavor too. Mango Sorbet is the most delicious flavor on earth!
So i walked to a Ralphs thats near by, i go inside, look for the icecream isle, and i found out that they don't have any! I ask the manneger, and he tells me, "Sorry if we're out of stok, but i think Albersons has it".
So later, i go to Albersons, and the same frign thing happens, they are all out. One of the workers tells me to go to Vons, so i do.
And once i got to Vons.... the same thing happens. I was getting pissed. I needed this icecream or i would die.
If there is any information on to where i can buy Mango Sorbet icecream, please, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, write me back.
Thank You

Not My Best Day__

I wish i had a better tale to tell you, but unfortunately, this one is hurtful, spiteful, i almost wanted to... >:(
Today is National Day of Silence and a group of gay/gay loving friends of mine where going to stay silent and "spread the word" about D.O.S. We went far to send the message, but there are alot of people who think negatively about homosexuality.
I was helping a friend girl out with some duckt-tape, and a black guy is standing right next to us and said, "Yo, this shit is so stupid." I know he was talking about D.O.S. because my friend girl and i glared at him and he nervously backed away..
Later, i tried explaining D.O.S. to e few other people who were curious about what it was. I tried explaining without saying anything. (you can imagine how hard that was) Then some guy starts saying shit about this whole movment! I glared at him trying to tell him to shut the fuck up, but then he starts getting up in my face and asks if i want to fight! I couldnt say anything so he backs away and says, "You won't fight me, your not even man enough." That coment was... so... RRRAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
I'm not saying that i didn't know that there was alot of promescuity amungst homosexuals and the phobes, actually i was completely aware of it, i just didn't think it would happen in a place that seemed so... Accepting. But thats what you get when you expect to have Heaven in Hell.

[AND JUST TO GET IT OUT THERE, PEOPLE, IT YOU ARE GAY, LESBIAN, TRANSGENDER, OF EVEN BICURIOUS, PLEASE, FOLLWO ME IN MY MOVEMENT IN THE FIGHT TO MAKE THIS A BETTER PLACE FOR US. jUST LEAVE A COMENT AND I WILL GET BACK TO YOU AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.]